I'd like to clear something up

[Jenna]

I am NOT the previous Jenna.

I have NO idea who she was.

I will NOT tolerate any more accusations flying my way. ;D

Thank you

Jen

[Tom-Picking the Best for AS!]

Jenna and I have talked about this, She is definently not the person that you guys might think she is

[Jenna]

No I am not ty

I hope by Monday it will be cleared for sure for the record, aka proof , and I hope that I do get apologies from those that have doubted me, accused me etc.

Totally discraceful

[R. Aiken]

sorry to hear about that jenna. i dont even know who the previous Jenna is

[Angie]

I don't even know why people would assume that ! Just because of a username !? Come on, if the old Jenna/Sebastian had decided to come back, he/she would have picked a new username, not the same one !

Anyways, I believe you 100% Jen

[Tom-Picking the Best for AS!]

I think we all do

[Jenna]

Thanks guys.

It will all be water under the bridge soon enough.

[Colby]

Jen, I"m sorry this has happened. Maybe it did because your name is Jen and you chose Jenna to play. Lame excuse, right? Maybe now all will know you are nt "that" person.
I can tell you aren't by the way you construct your sentenses and post!

[Ashlee]

O jen you want me to say sorry well sorry I guess

[Tina]

Wow, what happened?

I never thought you were Sebastian or Jenna or whoever!

[Jenna]

Thanks..

Final thoughts on this..

as for this other person jenna/jen/sebestion whoever it was i am not that person. Never was..never will be. My name is Jen, I chose jenna to play on survivor..yet does that mean I deserve this? The accusations, some stress etc etc?? No. None of whatever happened with this person is my fault nor will I ever take on that responsibility or blame. I shouldn't have to at all. I am human dont' you see? I am not some other person..Just Jen from Ottawa, Ontario.

I could sit here and scan all sorts of things to prove i am from Ottawa, my age, etc, etc..get my isp provider involved etc. Yet I am not..I shouldn't have to prove anymore who I am. I won't do more then be ME. JEN.

I came here to have fun, meet freinds, etc..not to have to sit and prove myself over again as to who i am, nor sit and basically suck up to those that doubt me.. nor have accusations thrown my way.

I'm a kind hearted person, full of nothing but love..yet no one will ever know that of me..except a few that do believe me and are standing by my side.

I feel this is an unjust/not right..I feel I have been cheated a chance..and that is very unfortunate..and makes me really sad. My gosh..I am human..as well. I have been hurt by some person I have no clue about..

I do know who I am..and I do know alot of people are missing out on a good hearted person/friend that i am..

How one person can ruin this for me..and others..is unbelievable..

Jen


Thank you to those who believe in me.

[Steph: Fnet Survivor 3 Host]

Can I be Jennastian then? lol j/k

[Jenna]

jaypee said:

Can I be Jennastian then? lol j/k

Bahahahahahahahahhahahahahahah

Grow up and drop it ;D

If you would like to discuss anything pm me k! ;D

[John ♥s Stephanie]

You may not fully understand why everyone got so paranoid. I have sent you a PM saying you were Jennabastian since shortly after you first came here. I do know I said in my last one that I would just have to take your word for it (I went back through my outbox and found that one), but we did get paranoid for a reason. I explained the username connection as being my source of suspicion and you seemed to understand that. I think that was a valid concern of mine.

The previous Jenna did something that could be very hurtful. He/she portrayed a false identity and when you find out that the person does not exist, it can be devistating. I had gotten really close to someone I thought was named Wilma. I got really close. I later found out Wilma was a guy and everything i thought I knew about her was a lie. That hurt so much. It felt like someone killed my friend. I started to become close to that previous Jenna and then I find out that Jenna doesn't exist either. With stuff like this going on and it just happenning recently, certain people are paranoid.

When we talked, I started off by saying i knew you were the person (which I'll admit I could have done in a better manner). However, in my second PM to you, I explained why I thought that and said that I would have to take your word.

Now, I can understand your frustration with this situation as I have been repeatedly accused of being someone i'm not in the past. Now, I have an established reputation and people know I am my own person.

It can be frustrating, but in certain situations, things have occured that will get you falsely accused of being someone you're not.

[Jenna]

I feel like I'm sitting here beating a dead horse over and over again..

John, first of all you pm'd me on the other board a few days back. I responded. You did not. You came here and posted instead. You could of pm'd me,, or did you want this out in the open? To continue on..etc? (no i'm not meaning to be rude at all).


I will not go back and bring forth what your pm spec. said. I will not do that. etc. For that was a PM, and between you and I.

No I will never fully understand this other Jenna/sebestion whoever person's actions, words, etc. I was not present at that time, during that time etc.


I am deeply sorry you and whoever else went through this all. I truely am. As I have said I do KNOW what it is like to be betrayed..very much so..and yes it hurts. Yes it makes you wonder if you can trust again etc. I could go on and on about knowing how it feels yet I won't.

Yet at the same time, do I deserve the continous jokes/stabs, accusations etc..? Soley due to the fact that I choose Jenna Lewis to use? And that my name happens to be Jennifer ( I prefer Jen)?

If you understand what it is like..then why continue this?

What more can i say or do?

My name is Jennifer. I am female. I am from Ottawa, Ont. I am my own person...I am not those others..yet I cannot make you, nor anyone believe me.

One will just have to take my word or not..as I posted in this thread..

I am hurt..very hurt by all of this..and frustrated..

Maybe I'm just as hurt by all these accusations etc. over the months as you and others have felt over this other peson. Have you and others ever thought about that?

I don't know..I just don't know what more to say or do...

jen

ETA: meant John not Jeff..