I'd like to clear something up

[John ♥s Stephanie]

I just saw this and wanted to make sure you understood why some of us were concerned about this (i cannot speak for all because there's a possibility of some people just wanting to be jerks about it). I don't always respond to PMs I get because I do get distracted (I have a short attention span).

As for my reason, I also told you it was the username itself jl05. Jennabastian used that username at several boards. I told you this in my PM to you originally. You explained it to me in a response.

As for thinking this of you over the months, after we originally talked, I did drop it. I didn't think of it at all until one day I see the thread at ForumsNet. We did talk and I did say I would have to take your word for it (you can check your old PMs on that if you still don't believe me) and when I offered a suggestion of asking Rhune to compare IP addresses to prove you aren't the same, you decided to drag my name into it saying that I was one of the people harassing you and not believing you, after I said I would take your word for it. Had you not done that, I probably would have stayed out of this from that point on, but when I get brought into something, I want to make sure that both sides come to an understanding. I'm trying to understand your stance towards me while I'm trying to make sure you understand that I did drop this after we talked shortly after you first came and it seems that you still held onto it when I did drop it like I said I would.

As for you being hurt by this, I cannot speak for the others, but can only speak on my experience with you and if you respond to me, I hope it will be towards me with your experience with me because you tend to speak generally and even in PMs you spoke generally to me with a lot of stuff I never did to you, which makes me feel obligated to continue this because I don't like false ideas about me out there.

However, I never once tried to hurt you and even my first PM to you was not in a serious tone. I don't know if you took it as one because it's very hard to get tone through the internet. That first PM I sent to you was to get a read on your response. I know how Jennabastian would have responded to that PM because I was close to him/her. When I do something off the wall or out of the blue, chances are, it's calculated.

My experience with you was when you first got here and then when you brought this topic over to ForumsNet and decided to say I was one of the people harassing you (when we hadn't spoken in months).

You do not react to situations the same as Jennabastian and I don't know how you act in camp or through PMs to others, but you don't have the same personality. Those that cannot see you are different people by now are either blind to perception, looking so hard to find Jennabastian again, or just want to be jerks.

Once again, I had dropped my suspicions of you being the same person a few months ago when I said I would take your word for it. I just want to make sure that's clear with you.

[Jenna]

I'm not going into any more explanations about my name/aka username then I already have from day one, due to the fact that its just going in circles over and over again. However for the last time I use jl05 due to the fact that my name is Jen (jennifer) and last name startes with an L and 05 is the year.

As i've said numerous times, this was brought up again due to the fact that I was made aware of again, and accused or wait, asked..if I was jenna/sebastion!!! I grew /am growing tired of it. Hence the reason for my posts here and there.

When people continously doubt you, accuse you, slam you etc, it gets to you. It makes you feel like sh#t.

I speak in 'general' terms due to the fact that a. I was warned not to bring in my past/my life or what have you, b. it has no bearing on this/aka it has nothing to do with this whole thing.

As to how i act here? I act like.. me. Either others can say or you can/will see after the game.

Yes your first and really only pm to me was percieved as an accusation. One coming from quite a few and I truely believe anyone else who would of precieved that pm you sent me would feel the same.

Those that cannot see you are different people by now are either blind to perception, looking so hard to find Jennabastian again, or just want to be jerks.

I agree..yet will it ever stop? will i ever get peace? That remains the question..that is where the stress, sadness, frustration lies within me.

Sorry for any spelling mistakes etc.

I hope that this has cleared up between 'us'. If not pm me, for its the best place to continue this if need be. As for the others, and the other comment/slam above.As in reply #11 here..who knows..


I do know that I feel like i'm walking on eggshells here and on the other board. I hate it and it makes me sad...if i express emotion its percieved as 'jenna/sebestion"etc., if i don't its seen as me being cold..

I just want peace..

[John ♥s Stephanie]

I just wanted to clear the air, and since you had made it public at Fnet, I was willing to keep this public. I really have no questions. The key points I wanted to get across were:

- I sent you two PMs when this first happened. One was accusitory. The other was an explaination of why I thought that way and then saying that I would just have to take your word for it and then I dropped it.

-When you brought up my name in that thread, you made it seem like I continually harassed you about it and that I have spent these past few months always doubting who you were, which was not true.

- I like to clear the air so that people don't go around holding grudges. I generally don't and I don't want others holding grudges against me.

[Tom-Picking the Best for AS!]

Locking because Jenna asked me too. She has made her poing and that is the truth!